songs

song 1
* duhai kekasih pujaan hatiku dapatkah kau memberiku satu arti sedikit rasa yang bisa ku mengerti bukan sumpah atau janji
* buktikanlah bila kau ada cinta setulus hatimu bisa menerima sebatas kejujuran yang kau miliki bukan sekedar bersama
* jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi setia tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama jauhi diriku, lupakanlah aku
* jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi setia tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama jauhi diriku, lupakanlah aku selamanya

song 2
*Ku susuri malam ini Yang tidak berbintang sunyi sepi Juga rembulan dah menghilang Dalam kelam ku sendiri
* Ku mencari hembus bayu Yang selalu berbisik madah rindu Kini membisu dalam sayu Tidak ku temu suaramu
* Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku Di saat ku perlukanmu Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu Di sini ku tersedu-sedu Setelah cinta pergi Ku mengusung duka ini diiringi Kisah janji dimungkiri lagi
* Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku Di saat ku perlukanmu Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu Di sini ku tersedu-sedu Setelah cinta pergi Ku mengusung duka ini Diiringi Kisah janji Dimungkiri Dimungkiri
* Sia-sia ku Mencintaimu Setia padamu Percayakanmu Sebak dadaku Retak hatiku Luka jiwaku Dihiris pilu
* Sia-siaku Mencintaimu Setia padamu Percayakanmu Sebak dadaku Retak hatiku Luka jiwaku Dihiris pilu Beribu sesalanku…

two songs that often get me started wit singing my heart out & ended wit crying my heart out. hah. wat tragic lyrics!

nway, we went to SD yamaha concert on 1 july. a tragically funny story it was. i knew the concert was on 1 july but bcoz i had bn terribly bz that week, it just slipped my mind that 1 july was that sunday aft our career fair in klcc. i had a weddg to attend on that sunday. & dared to make arrangement for a girls get2gether aftwards.

come 1 july, the phone reminder went off. 1 july, 1-5pm, yamaha concert, SD club house. there u go all the plans simply went down the drain. a fren chastised me even for ditching the plan. but wat wud u have me do? not like i had someone else to take dhani to the concert kan.

but nope, dhani wasnt performing but i was hell bent to take him to the concert so at least he wud know wat a yamaha sch concert looks, feels like.

a simple staging

solo violin was soothing but dhani said it made him sleepy

tis duo played classical. it made dhani even sleepier. hehe

tis is shawn, age 13. bn playing drum for only 4m. but he started wit electone so he's learning drum faster since he can already read notes

another drum solo. he's even older, age 15

my lil drummer. his instructor actually wanted to put his name down but he was too shy & wasnt confident enuf. it's ok, practice & learn more, nxt year we'll make sure he's in

& mb by nxt year he could play drum acoustic for jujur by radja & beribu sesalan by 3 suara for me ;) btw, choosing drum seems like a rite thing to do. had we decided on piano or violin, surely by now he'd have lost interest already based on his comments during the concert. hehe.

kosong... NOT.

Kau melihat diriku
Seperti sesuatu
Yang mencabar dirimu
Akal dan mindamu


Kau mendustaiku
Kau bilang mereka tak tahu
Siapa diriku
Sedangkan kau juga begitu


Segala kata cacian
Yang telah engkau berikan
Membuatku rasa
Kosong...kosong


Setiap detik diperhatikan
Kau cari cara putar belitkan
Kau jadikan diriku
Kosong...kosong


Kini aku bangkit
Membuktikan yang ku tak sakit
Dengan segala perit yang kau berikan


Kini aku pantas berjalan
Bergerak ke hadapan
Dan akan ku buktikan
Siapa diriku yang sebenar
Kosong...kosong


Segala kata cacian
Yang telah engkau berikan
Membuatku rasa
Kosong .. kosong 


Setiap detik diperhatikan
Kau cari cara putar belitkan
Kau jadikan diriku
Kosong...kosong


Segala kata cacian
Yang telah engkau berikan
Membuatku rasa
Kosong...kosong


tis is our currect fav song. wenever the song is aired both mom & son wud sing along siap berjoget bagai. hehe. unlike her other 2 hits yg i personally think x best langsung, tis song is quite catchy. mb tis is the only song wit lyric yg x overly perasan. yes, if u notice her earlier hits both self-acclaimed 'i'm the pretty one that's why the boy fell for me'. bluekkk! 


nway, coming back to kosong, that's certainly doesnt represent our life tis days. 2moro's thursday then friday. w'ends are now spent at dhani's mama's house. our kemas-rumah-on-w'ends routine is now out the window. the bigger dhani gets, the more his mama wants him to be around as much possible. agaknye kalau boleh she wants us to move back in wit them. ni awal2 dh requested us to spend the month o ramadhan there. 


so for the past how many w'ends, we've bn packing our bags every friday & off we go to mama's. saturday & sunday morning kaum2 ibu have swimming lessons. hehe. alhamdulillah aft about 12 hours o lessons i now can swim. yeay! tho at the age of 34 *blush blush*. it was a challenge at 1st. funny how it seems so simple wen others are doing it but wen u actually try it, baru tau how difficult it is to get your hands to synchronise wit your legs & how hard it is to make your body float at the same time. but alhamdulillah, i've passed frog style walau stil huru hara but hey... ok wat? now we're learning free style wic i think is easier to do but more tiring compared to frog style.

8am on w'end morning. gigih!

the month o april was both mama & mummy's bday month. so we went out quite frequently for w'end lunches & dinners. same thing's bn happening in may in celebration of mothers day ;) 

lunch @ o'briens wit abg iman post the avengers

 BR treat post dinner wit mikel yg gedebob

 mummy yg gedebob ;p

mkn ni mane x gedebob! tartufo @ italiannies

one w'end we followed mama balik kolo pilah to visit nenek & atok. tempat wajib pegi ialah pasar & kedai tudung kwn mama. hehe.

 hi-way ganti bukit putus (eh ye ke? ye la kan?)

 mentang lah it was only kolo pilah, i simply wore a mismatched leopard print leggings wit red tshirt. hehe. & orange tudung! ;p

 had nasi lemak smbal sotong @  an old school kopitiam by the roadside :)

mama bought 4kg tulang for her & 2kg for me wic i later made sup tulang & brought to ofis :)

bought selendang @ mama's fren's boutique. the exact same one costs 75 @ ariani. sold for 35 here. super like!

one w'end we went to curve to get abg iman's drum set. but we spent more time @ daiso & nichii than at yamaha. bengkek je the boys esp the big one lah sbb the lil one was also amused by watever stuff @ daiso :p

 abg & adik

 mat ni pulak yg lebih2 test nmpak. hehe.

 wat i got fr daiso (paid by  mama. she said use 1 bill lah, easier. i took out some notes & she pushed the notes back to me. hehehe)

 the cuties ;)

the occupants. super love!

we normally go out for only 2 hours, 3 max. the big boy doesnt have the patient to leave his online games for too long. balik rumah the moms sambung project. kalau rajin tolong mama kemas her wardrobe lah, kemas tudung lah, kemas hbags lah, kemas mekap lah, kemas accessories lah... 

 brooches maintaining & repairing session (hers)

mine (sad). 70% was either gifted by, taken or borrowed fr but never meant to be returned  (even sadder! :p)

if there's no mengemas project, i'd make us something out o the ordinary. bkn out o ordinary apa sgt lah, just stuff i rarely make. 

 strawberry smoothies

 siap!!!

 choc milkshake (i used milo instead sbb xde choc. pndai2 je kan... heee)

siappp!!!

abg iman used to be most irritated by dhani's room invasion. he wud stay lockd in his room. he hated it wen the lil one pestered him for his desktop, his ipod, his ipad, his iphone, his ps, his drawing block, his color pencils, in short, his everything. but tis lately, die cam almost impatient to wait for dhani's arrival. the reason being is...

they're infected wit euro fever!

he's so into football at the moment so i got him tis :)

my sister rarely cooks. she only does so on special occasions. & also wen she has something to shout about in her cooking. such as... 

limited edition that was flown all the way fr tawau

& my sister always have somewhere to go or something to find or appointments due on w'ends. giant kota dsara lah, giant kelana jaya lah, tesco lah, pkns shah alam lah, wangsa maju lah, jalan TAR lah, masjid india lah etc etc etc. & before tis she never wanted me to drive her around. she preferred mak atik. she only resorted to me if mak atik couldnt make it. tu pon as teman, still not as her driver. but lately she has started to have some confidence in my driving ability. so saya jd driver lah. cuma wit me, she cant simply sit back & relax, she has to be my human gps lest she wants us to get lost 2gethergether.  ok, now i know why she refused to let me drive her that often, i'm sgt bodosss wen it comes to roads & direction! hahaha.

found these books @ one o the bookstores @ pkns. a very commendable effort to promote jawi learning among kids. dhani had so much fun wit riddles fr 'cubalah teka'.

that's our w'end routines. as for tis coming one, we've already got a list o xtvts lined up for us. saturday: swimming cls for mummy, 1st football training for dhani @ skttdi (1). best o luck, darlz! sunday: we're going hiking @ broga hill wit mummy's  uni frens. ntah bleh ke x pompuan gemuk ni panjat bukit??? huwa huwa huwa. & there;s his wudo class yg ntah bile nk smbung, 

kosong? most definitely not! yeay, w'end is approaching fast!

dream job?

i used to envy my sister's job. she's doing marketing so she's having appointments, meetings, lunch invitations outside all the time. i wanted that kind o job. a job that doesnt need me to slouch in front o the PC the whole day long, a job that lets me escape the office environment at least 4 days a week, a job that allows me to go places. but i'm not a marketing person, so how wud a job like that ever be possible? i was supposed to be a teacher, remember? & i did commit myself for almost 7 years. & there wasnt much travelling. teachers dont travel much anyway, at least not work-related.

but now, although i'm stil not doing marketing, my current job does require me to go places once a while. being a 'kaki jalan', i'm more than ok wit that. however, being a single mom, being maidless & having committed in sending & fetching ahmad nani from sch, my job sorta needs arrangement as not to affect my son's schooling. if the dates fall on weekend, i'd bring him along. if it's weekdays... errr. so far it has always bn weekend. coz i'm the one who proposes the dates. & also the venue ;) & the food. & the rooms. & the backdrops + the wordings.

so last few weeks, aft 'bt a month o preparation,  hundreds emails & phone calls, countless bargaining, finally we had our brainstorming session @ pulai springs resort. it was my 1st big event involving the top guns. ceo was there & all HODs. even our group managing director dato' AA was there. & our chairman too, tan sri MJH. alhamdulillah everything went smooth. there were o course hiccups along the way but nothing major.

the facilitators. the think tanks.

the table arrangements. 

participants

that's our ceo giving opening remark

nite session. bbq & karaoke. wit red & black theme.

everyone was in red & black :) 

that's our singing ceo performing 'hanya engkau yg mampu'. & we thot he'd be performing some song fr the 70s! :p

that's my director. woohooo!

that's our GE for nst

& that's GE harian metro

the most entertaining performance. he was singing 'kau ilhamku', that explains why he needed 'ilham' there ;p

even ahmad nani was clad in red & black 

wit uncle nizam who was kind enuf to replace me coz we had 2 rush back that nite even b4 the bbq & karaoke session ended. 

yup. we had to rush back coz ahmad nani had exam the nxt day. i left the program at 10pm and reached home at around 130am. 

so, where's the nxt venue? there'll be a sales conference in may. penang? cherating? i was thinking o redang or tioman :)

wat he refused at 1st...

but then he had so much fun dh mcm x mau balik.

a sch fren invited us to his son's 1st bday bash last 2 weeks. aunT kay nk pegi so we went 2gether.

that's uncle nadesh melayan lil misters & missus ;) rajin siap prepared kids' corner lagi. ..

the boys ralit doing coloring while feasting on nuggets & fries & blue fizzy lemonade

ahmad nani as usual mesti nk take part in games. but he didnt win tis one. the kids kn collect as many candies as they could. having small hands definitely a minus  point for him. hehe.

2nd game - musical chair. pon x menang. jibby boy won tis. & nsb baik ahmad nani x bising.

nxt - dance & freeze! ok, he won tis. siap buat shuffle & robot dance bagai.

the boys wit uncle nadesh. kehausan masing2!

that's the bday boy - rayyan.

& i wore the top i bought fr poplook. matched wit same colour scarf. it's too plain so i had to accessorise - bejeweled & feather long necklace fr forever21 (bought it some time ago but worn for the 1st time that day sbb b4 cam xde outfit yg sesuai :p)

& since i was wearing top & scarf o the same color, i toned the purple look down wit tis pair o beige peep toe wedges fr vincci. & i was 3-inches taller that afternoon ;)