Tuesday, August 23, 2011

drama melayu hari ini

mungkin padah melayan terlalu byk drama melayu tis lately, hidup aku pon cam drama. so exhausted. so drained. even rite at tis moment my head's thumping.

nsb lah ade si baju hijau ni. baju raya fr mak wan. tis year meriah plak bj melayu smpai 3 psg. tp x boleh lawan kasut raya 4 psg! bagus. mummy beli 2 psg, his dad pon beli 2 psg. the upside o not having a full-time dad.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

mb tis is why...

i) my immediate boss has rated me 4 for the 2nd quarter, albeit our constant disagreement. being rated 4 is like tis close to 5, means that i could just get that big fat max bonus once the financial year ends *drool*. that's wat actually drives me. + i need to prove to my director that i'm worth the pay i demanded wen i was first offered. and IF we dont achieve tis particular KPI, we're screwed! we've worked so hard to attain the KPIs but our hard effort woudnt count if we fail to accomplish tis one. sigh. so, i just nd to push thru, doesnt matter lah if i feel like i'm the only one hustling my ass off, just DO the work!

ii) i could hardly turn my head around, i could hardly take a deep breath, i could hardly fart wen i'm at ofis (imagine how bz i am at work!) & having to call home / bank intermittently in every half hour to check on the status of her western union has consumed my already restricted time & energy & it really is bothering me. & the worry & fear of the money getting lost in the system, that's wearing me out. & having to explain to her how western union works, that's even more exhausting!

iii) owh God help me! we'd gone house-hunting for two weeks, it ended on last sunday wit me finally made up my mind to rent a gud fren's house, wic is quite a distance fr my office, until other nearer house becomes more affordable for us (or rather until we could afford to get a nearer house). but the hassles, i'm telling u... & to be doing tis house-hunting errand during fasting month some more, it was just insane! the apartments in the vicinity of my office ranging from 1k to 1.5k. there's one house right at the back of my office (i could just hop twice & 'plink'! i'd already be at my work station), fully furnished wit 1.3k monthly rental, the landlord seemed (or rather sounded) like a decent person. it could have bn just perfect - i could save on fuel & toll & mb lunch $$$ since i could just go home & have lunch & of course i could cut down on unnecessary friday lunch outing, thus save me fr splurging on unnecessary items. but it came wit 2+1 depo & 1/2 utility depo. that made me choked. i suppose that's the standard rate, but of course i have other things to prioritise. & if we were to stay in bangsar, i shud also think of dhani's school fee & all. owh my, dhani must be crushed that he has to leave his frens & dear teachers. at tis point of time, that reality hasnt totally sunk in yet, he stil thinks that even if we get relocated, he'd stil go to the same sch, see the same frens & teachers. poor boy... but we cant possibly wait any longer.

iii) yes. i dunno if others are experiencing the same thing as well. my tummy starts grumbling as early as 11am, it often feels like there's a storm brewing in there & getting thru the day is plain agonizing. seriusly! i feel like a 6yo, even ahmad dhani doesnt behave like me, i guess. i do take dates during pre-dawn meals, i do drink lotsa plain water, in fact there's no cold drink on the table tis ramadhan. come to think of it, i have bn depriving myself (& the whole household, but i know my helper's protesting in silence!) of cold drinks even b4 ramadhan. i realise the body feels less lethargic w'out ice consumption. but hey, that's me.

iv) haha. a chinese fren once asked me, how come some people could really lose weight during ramadhan but some people do utterly the opposite? heee. i hope i dont make the statistic of the opposite. ever heard of tis saying - if u fast, u'll have to feast. if u feast, u'll have to fast. vicious cycle, i know. i cook almost everyday. & i only cook watever i strongly desire to have. thus, the 2nd & even 3rd helping. haish. we've gone to psr ramadhan only once. & it was quite a waste of $$$. we bought 2 pcs of chicken sambal but we only ate 1 pc. i'd rather cook :)

to be continued....

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

why do i feel...

i) as if i'm the only one here doing so much work 2 achieve the unit's kpi???
ii) sooo geram at my maid (or his dad or his uncle) for causing me headache wit tis western union hiccups???
iii) that house-hunting in kl, tho has ended now, could lead to temporary mental instability?
iv) the older i get, the less tolerance i have for fasting?
v) and yet no matter how much i want to refrain fr taking that 2nd helping during iftar, i stil fail & sometimes end up wit the 3rd helping even???
vi) that i find it very very very difficult to maintain my interest to keep myself well-groomed during office hours?

to be continued...............

vii) easily annoyed by silly little mistakes done by everybody at home?
ix) i havent taken advantage of ramadhan at all???
x) life is so unfair to us?

& last but not least..
why do i feel like trying out colour-blocking trend?

-picking myself up. 10.00pm. 16082011

Tuesday, August 9, 2011


we went 2 alamanda on saturday. so far away fr home. thing is, we had free tixs for mr popper's penguins for ahmad & kakak (courtesy of lovely aunT kay), so since the show was on for quite some time, it was still available at few cinemas & alamanda was among one. & my colleague fr ofis who was temporary  bujang on that w'end since the wife & kids went balik kg (his leave application wasnt approved) had asked me 2 watch 'the rise of the planet apes' wit him. & so we went. i definitely couldnt resist mr james owh-your-sweet-smile-melts-my-heart franco on the big screen.

for some reason, i just felt that the movie wasnt suitable for dhani. that was why i made him  watch mr popper instead. i thot the RotPotA (rot.pot.a???) wud confuse him coz i had planet of the apes on my mind. him being a curious one, might shower me wit questions i have no answer for.  like last time wen we watched 'x-men: the 1st class', he asked why were the club girls wearing sexy lingeries? & wat does 'go fuck yourself' mean?

RotPotA is totally different fr planet of the apes, starred mark wahlberg & helena bonham carter. while PotA was set in apes world, RotPotA has today's world on the background setting. will (james franco) is a scientist working on the cure for alzheimer, tests it on a chimp and is so close to success just to get his research called off wen the chimp runs amok. the chimp is eventually shot to death but leaves a baby, entrusted to will. he brings him up and secretly carries out his supposedly abandoned research on both caesar the chimp and his own dad who suffers fr alzheimer (yes, that's why he's so adamant in finding the cure for the disease & eventually it becomes his personal battle). meanwhile, caesar grows up as an extraordinarily smart chimp who could beat his human counterparts his age. but chimps dont make a gud pet. no matter how human they are, they stil have that innate beastly traits in them. the rest, u'll have to watch it yourself.

as much as i know that the story is all fictional, i'm stil impressed wit the cgi & the magnificent techniques they use in making the film. the chimp 'caesar', tho inconsistent in size, is really convincing especially the facial expressions. i could totally feel his emotions - wen he's sad, wen he's happy, wen he's curious, wen he's disappointed, wen he's scared, wen he's confused, wen he's being rebellious etc etc etc. in short, they manage to not only portray but also differentiate the emotions felt by the chimp. & i think it might be true since we share about 90% gene wit our ape relatives. who knows...

credit to andy serkis, the man behind caesar the ape. if u watch caesar closely, u wud see gollum (LOTR) in him. yes, he played gollum too.

i almost forget 'bt will's girlfren, the only female character in the film. it's the girl fr 'slum dog millionaire'. she's pretty & she looks like a very smart girl being alongside the main character, will. but her role isnt that big, almost insignificant, to be honest. but i think she might land a role of bond girl one day (i just think she's got a bond girl persona wit her).

so peep, rise & go watch it!

Saturday, August 6, 2011

& back again?

it's bn so long, aint it? i havent 4gotten 'bt the existence o ahmadmiracle. how can i? he's wit me all the time, kan?  i've bn constantly wanting to write away, but... there's always buts kan... so wat have i bn up to? pretty much, not so much. it's woark-home-work-home routine for the past few months. there were trips here & there but nothing big 2 highlight on.
anyway... it's ramadhan already. alhamdulillah, syukur ya Allah for another fabulous month o ramadhan. our month. let's share something i gathered fr kuliyyah by datuk hassandin a few days ago held at ns* surau:-

1) Allah has said that Rejab belongs to Him, syaaban belongs to Rasulullah saw & ramadhan belongs to us, the ummah. there are 3 most significant nights in each month: the night of nisfu syaaban, the night o isra' & mi'raj & the ever awaited night in the entire hijrah year - the night o lailatul qadar, the most special gift for us, the ummah o Rasulullah saw. therefore, let us pray hard that we'll be blessed with the amazing gift o lailatul qadar this year coz we might not live long enough 2 beseech it next year...

2) dont be too eager to get our little ones to fast coz at the age o 5/6 and with us not being around during daytime, how do we ensure they actually really do fast? hmmm a point to ponder, an eye & mind opener at the same time. i, being a mom, was (or stil am?) very excited at the idea o ahmad shenomot fasting tis year. why not? he's already 6, it feels like it's just the rite thing to do: to start training him to fast. BUT. he has to fast for Allah, not becoz his mom tells him to. that's more important. & i dont want to have a cheater at the end o ramadhan. a cheater who nibbles biscuits or gulps water secretly wen nobody's looking. so, instead o making him fast, i let him choose whether to fast or not. but o coz i do coax him a little - the RM1 upah for every full day, the trip to psr ramadhan (geee! tis boy loves psr ramadhan!) or break fast @ outlet o his choice etc etc etc. but wen he utters the magic phrase, i give in. "i cannot tahan anymore". ok, go on have your lunch.

3) tarawikh can be done at the comfort o our own home. owh dear, how embarrassing tis confession is - i havent done any tarawikh yet. gosh why la am i ever so liat to take the opportunity o tis holy month to perform more & more ibadah? gotta start somewhere!!! no lame excuses, it's plain laziness. need a little nudge here, a gentle push there. insyaAllah. my helper never fails to direct the same question past berbuka "tarawikh mlm ini, kak?" & i've bn very constant with my answer "mlm esok, ye...". come the nxt day, it's the same Q&A session over again. ok, tonite's the nite. pray i wont be calculative with the imam. pray i wont whine if the imam's pace isnt up to my preference. pray i still remember how to perform the tarawikh & witir prayers. go find the solat book after tis.

are these the only takeout o the ceramah session that day? i seriously cant recall any other key points. ok, i need to catch some sleep. we have a movie each to devour tis afternoon. mr popper's penguins for the kids (thx to aunt kay for the free tixs) & the rise o the planet apes for the adults. & we're watching it all the way @ alamanda. why la so far away? i just feel like driving that far (can that be accepted??? rite now, i'm craving for a long distance drive somewhere, anywhere like, oooohhhh pehlisss! but work's bn so hectic & there's not much fund for traveling these days so i can only crave & crave & crave & the furthest i could go is the selangor/kl/putrajaya borders. haha. something is better than nothing, i suppose?)

btw, i'm no longer on FB. deactivated it about a month ago & up till tis very moment, i havent missed it a bit. curious! i'm only on twitter & now... ahmadmiracle is back on the blogsphere.