kosong... NOT.

Kau melihat diriku
Seperti sesuatu
Yang mencabar dirimu
Akal dan mindamu


Kau mendustaiku
Kau bilang mereka tak tahu
Siapa diriku
Sedangkan kau juga begitu


Segala kata cacian
Yang telah engkau berikan
Membuatku rasa
Kosong...kosong


Setiap detik diperhatikan
Kau cari cara putar belitkan
Kau jadikan diriku
Kosong...kosong


Kini aku bangkit
Membuktikan yang ku tak sakit
Dengan segala perit yang kau berikan


Kini aku pantas berjalan
Bergerak ke hadapan
Dan akan ku buktikan
Siapa diriku yang sebenar
Kosong...kosong


Segala kata cacian
Yang telah engkau berikan
Membuatku rasa
Kosong .. kosong 


Setiap detik diperhatikan
Kau cari cara putar belitkan
Kau jadikan diriku
Kosong...kosong


Segala kata cacian
Yang telah engkau berikan
Membuatku rasa
Kosong...kosong


tis is our currect fav song. wenever the song is aired both mom & son wud sing along siap berjoget bagai. hehe. unlike her other 2 hits yg i personally think x best langsung, tis song is quite catchy. mb tis is the only song wit lyric yg x overly perasan. yes, if u notice her earlier hits both self-acclaimed 'i'm the pretty one that's why the boy fell for me'. bluekkk! 


nway, coming back to kosong, that's certainly doesnt represent our life tis days. 2moro's thursday then friday. w'ends are now spent at dhani's mama's house. our kemas-rumah-on-w'ends routine is now out the window. the bigger dhani gets, the more his mama wants him to be around as much possible. agaknye kalau boleh she wants us to move back in wit them. ni awal2 dh requested us to spend the month o ramadhan there. 


so for the past how many w'ends, we've bn packing our bags every friday & off we go to mama's. saturday & sunday morning kaum2 ibu have swimming lessons. hehe. alhamdulillah aft about 12 hours o lessons i now can swim. yeay! tho at the age of 34 *blush blush*. it was a challenge at 1st. funny how it seems so simple wen others are doing it but wen u actually try it, baru tau how difficult it is to get your hands to synchronise wit your legs & how hard it is to make your body float at the same time. but alhamdulillah, i've passed frog style walau stil huru hara but hey... ok wat? now we're learning free style wic i think is easier to do but more tiring compared to frog style.

8am on w'end morning. gigih!

the month o april was both mama & mummy's bday month. so we went out quite frequently for w'end lunches & dinners. same thing's bn happening in may in celebration of mothers day ;) 

lunch @ o'briens wit abg iman post the avengers

 BR treat post dinner wit mikel yg gedebob

 mummy yg gedebob ;p

mkn ni mane x gedebob! tartufo @ italiannies

one w'end we followed mama balik kolo pilah to visit nenek & atok. tempat wajib pegi ialah pasar & kedai tudung kwn mama. hehe.

 hi-way ganti bukit putus (eh ye ke? ye la kan?)

 mentang lah it was only kolo pilah, i simply wore a mismatched leopard print leggings wit red tshirt. hehe. & orange tudung! ;p

 had nasi lemak smbal sotong @  an old school kopitiam by the roadside :)

mama bought 4kg tulang for her & 2kg for me wic i later made sup tulang & brought to ofis :)

bought selendang @ mama's fren's boutique. the exact same one costs 75 @ ariani. sold for 35 here. super like!

one w'end we went to curve to get abg iman's drum set. but we spent more time @ daiso & nichii than at yamaha. bengkek je the boys esp the big one lah sbb the lil one was also amused by watever stuff @ daiso :p

 abg & adik

 mat ni pulak yg lebih2 test nmpak. hehe.

 wat i got fr daiso (paid by  mama. she said use 1 bill lah, easier. i took out some notes & she pushed the notes back to me. hehehe)

 the cuties ;)

the occupants. super love!

we normally go out for only 2 hours, 3 max. the big boy doesnt have the patient to leave his online games for too long. balik rumah the moms sambung project. kalau rajin tolong mama kemas her wardrobe lah, kemas tudung lah, kemas hbags lah, kemas mekap lah, kemas accessories lah... 

 brooches maintaining & repairing session (hers)

mine (sad). 70% was either gifted by, taken or borrowed fr but never meant to be returned  (even sadder! :p)

if there's no mengemas project, i'd make us something out o the ordinary. bkn out o ordinary apa sgt lah, just stuff i rarely make. 

 strawberry smoothies

 siap!!!

 choc milkshake (i used milo instead sbb xde choc. pndai2 je kan... heee)

siappp!!!

abg iman used to be most irritated by dhani's room invasion. he wud stay lockd in his room. he hated it wen the lil one pestered him for his desktop, his ipod, his ipad, his iphone, his ps, his drawing block, his color pencils, in short, his everything. but tis lately, die cam almost impatient to wait for dhani's arrival. the reason being is...

they're infected wit euro fever!

he's so into football at the moment so i got him tis :)

my sister rarely cooks. she only does so on special occasions. & also wen she has something to shout about in her cooking. such as... 

limited edition that was flown all the way fr tawau

& my sister always have somewhere to go or something to find or appointments due on w'ends. giant kota dsara lah, giant kelana jaya lah, tesco lah, pkns shah alam lah, wangsa maju lah, jalan TAR lah, masjid india lah etc etc etc. & before tis she never wanted me to drive her around. she preferred mak atik. she only resorted to me if mak atik couldnt make it. tu pon as teman, still not as her driver. but lately she has started to have some confidence in my driving ability. so saya jd driver lah. cuma wit me, she cant simply sit back & relax, she has to be my human gps lest she wants us to get lost 2gethergether.  ok, now i know why she refused to let me drive her that often, i'm sgt bodosss wen it comes to roads & direction! hahaha.

found these books @ one o the bookstores @ pkns. a very commendable effort to promote jawi learning among kids. dhani had so much fun wit riddles fr 'cubalah teka'.

that's our w'end routines. as for tis coming one, we've already got a list o xtvts lined up for us. saturday: swimming cls for mummy, 1st football training for dhani @ skttdi (1). best o luck, darlz! sunday: we're going hiking @ broga hill wit mummy's  uni frens. ntah bleh ke x pompuan gemuk ni panjat bukit??? huwa huwa huwa. & there;s his wudo class yg ntah bile nk smbung, 

kosong? most definitely not! yeay, w'end is approaching fast!

take me places...

yes they do... books take me places... places i've nvr bn before, places i might not even be able to reach but am dying to explore: the cultures, the food, the sceneries...
they let me be someone i wish i were, someone i could nvr be... or mb if i just give myself a lil nudge, i could... just mb...
they r my saviour. they help beat depression.. or at least it's comforting to be reassured o one thing: watever shites i've had to endure or will have to endure, it's not as bad as some other souls have to battle...

if i were to leave tis place (not that i am any time soon), the book sale is one o the things i wud definitely miss. i've promised not to spend on anything tis month since the car insurance + road tax are due, but i couldnt resist these... got me hard cover shanghai girls by lisa see for 19.90 (rp69.90), man & wife by tony parson for 17.90 (rp45), waiting by ha jin for 17.90 (rp 59.30) & i also got dhani yertle the turtle (by dr seuss) floor puzzle for 24.90. book xcess opens a booth here almost every month and it's always a day or two aft our payday. wat a cunning tactic!

how i wish i could just splurge & splurge & splurge on just anything. but for a single mom wit tis income,  it'd be irresponsible to do that. as long as all essentials r met, alhamdulillah, other urges could wait :)

mb wen ahmad dhani shetopot is big & successful, he'll have the chance to go places, explore cultures, experience food, soak up sceneries of all the places i could only read now... & if he stil loves me the way he does now, mb he'd let me tag along. who knows... hehe.

insyaAllah ;)

 

cheap? doesnt matter ;)

had bfast wit a gud fren @ mcD damansara damai on saturday. otw back, gatal nk check our SSF nearby my house area.

mat kecik was more than happy to help wit the trolley. org dh kenyang, dpt pulak mcD hotcakes + iced milo pagi2.

i got these. they were cheapo - square tin (top right) was only 2.30, the 3 round medium ones 5.00 each & the big ones 7++.

operasi cheapo deco started once we got home. 1st was removing the dangling deco light fr our tv rack...

to here ;) it looks much nicer at nite. yes, i dont like too much light, on weekdays we only let the pendaflour light on wen dhani does his homework. pastu we just switch on tis deco light & 2 other floor lamps + some scented candles ;)

2nd was the dining table. i bought new plate mats but they are put underneath the white ones coz they dont look very nice laid there on their own. at 1st i felt like it was quite a waste but on 2nd thot, since the white ones dont really function well as plate mats, they were just perfect to be paired. yeay!

& the center piece is a zen candle holder, a bday gift :)

then for a change o look, i put tis cloth on our book rack, just to add some colors to our solemn living room. it's not even a table runner, it's actually some kind o selendang given by my sister. she got it wen she visited makasar last year. it's made o bugis silk. i love the stripes ;)

that's my reading lamp there surrounded by candle holders. & that tabung needs to be reachable for dhani at all time ;)

our old plate mats. not meant for heavy duty. so wat i did was i glued the strands back 2gether and use them to deco our tv rack ;)

our new aquarium. can u see our pet guppy fantail fish? ;) too bad they died few hours later. mb it was the water or the stones. the aquarium cost 24 only (50% off fr ssf defect corner)

nxt, came the challenging chores. hanging these strands o deco curtain.

these were the old ones for dhani's room.

replaced wit these ;) 2 inggit each. at 1st i thot o buying more tis w'end, but if there are too many, they will get tangled easier, so i've decided to just let them be.

these ones were at my room. also 2 inggit each fr ssf (but out o stock already now).

i replaced them wit these. somehow, the look isnt wat i had visualised. haha. mb i need to add more strands, or make them longer. it just doesnt have the groovy look i actually wanted. these cost 4.70 each.

we also got these tin boxes. i was thinking o storing my cosmetics in here. dhani got 1 also for him, using it to keep the money he's bn saving.

look, he was also bz helping me around the house. attaboy!

smpai kepenatan & tergolek! hehe.

& can u spot my car key in there? kot terbuang, naya! ;p

& we made tis card for 20 inggit. it entitles u for further discount on top o existing discount or discount on normal priced items. cool. just wat a bargain hunter like me need ;)

* i forgot 'bt these tins. they're used to store tea, milk, milo, coffee. nice & look vr organised, dont they? but they arent air-tight so i stil keep the packaging on.

it's not much, but i love it. cheap? doesnt matter ;)

new tenant

we have a pair of pet fish. not a pair as in male & female pair, i think both r female. i took them fr a gud fren's house. she's got like a hundred o them in her giant deco clay pot in her garden. i scooped 'bt 8 o them but Allah loved them more (boleh gitu? :p). so we're left wit only a pair.

that's how guppy fantail fish looks like. ours r in no condition to be photographed at the moment. hehe. according to that fren o mine, the prettier ones, wit exaggerated colourful fantails r actually male while the plain looking ones wit only one stripe on their bodies, wit ordinary tails unlike fans at all, are female. ya, it sucks to be them huh? :p

ok, enuf 'bt guppy fish. so, for the past two weeks, i've been coming home to tis...

it didnt really bother me. w'out much fuss, i diligently swept it all & threw it in the trash bin. i thot there was a bird building its nest somewhere OUTSIDE the house. only yesterday it hit me that...

we have tis very-rarely-opened cabinet above the washer. so i took a peek...

ahah! somebody's bn busy!

hello there!!! i dont remember signing any lease agreement wit u???

* i havent met the 'tenant' yet.


update: ok, we've met. it flew out o its nest upon hearing the noise i made. it's mynah bird. hehe.

mb dhani shud teach it to talk. that'd be fun! ;)