letting go...

hello :)

i really treasure these but i think it's time to let go...

if u find any item that u like, u already know the drill, kan? 

just leave a message here or email me --> awiecute@yahoo.com

if u're a fren, just twitter / sms / bbm me

i could also do COD (bangsar, bandar utama, ttdi & nearby areas)

combined  postage allowed (of course!)

except for the mild faded colour, most of the items are still in mint condition
but let's say if u arent happy wit the item,  u can return it & i'll refund your money & i'll bear the postage cost. win win, rite?

happy browsing! (& shopping too, i hope!)

SING 01

item description: pre-loved. 6/10 (faded colour)

SING 02

item description: pre-poved. 6/10 (faded colour)

PTS 03

description: pre-loved item. 8/10

TS 04

item description: pre-loved. 7/10

LS 05

item description: pre-loved. 7/10 (faded colour)

LS 06

item description: pre-loved. 8/10

LS 07

item description: pre-loved. 8/10

LS 08

item description: pre-loved. 7/8 (faded colour)

LS 09

item description: pre-loved. 7/10

LS 10

item description: pre-loved. 7/10 (faded colour)

LS 11

item description: pre-loved. 7/10

LS 12

item description: pre-loved. 9/10

LS 13

item description: pre-loved. 7/10

LS 14

item description: pre-loved. 8/10

LS 15

item description: pre-loved. 9/10

J 16

item description: pre-loved. 8/10

J 17

item description: pre-loved. 8/10

J 18

item description: pre-loved. 7/10 (faded colour)

* more items coming insyaAllah ;)

ramadhan... brings back memories...

as ramadhan's nearing, i'm starting to feel a big knot in my tummy. it's my 2nd ramadhan as a single mom. & 2nd ramadhan for ahmad dhani to puasa btul. last year we had a maid, tho i seldom let her cook for us. at least she was efficient enuf to wake us up for sahur. based on the experience o previous ramadhan, ahmad dhani wudnt be able to survive a full day puasa w'out sahur. he'd wake up wailing, blaming me for missing sahur & refusing to fast. i really wish that wudnt happen tis ramadhan. i dont mind if he couldnt pull the puasa penuh stunt, but i doubt i could tolerate unpleasant early morning tantrums in the holy month o ramadhan. dhani's mama (my sister) has invited us to stay wit her family thruout fasting month. dhani was so delighted wen my sister first voiced it out. i wasnt really thrilled. i've grown soo attached to our humble crib that leaving it for one whole month at first sounded just absurd.

but then... ramadhan brings back dreadful memories fr two years ago. i admit it's just so shameful o me for associating the glorious & rewarding month of ramadhan to that most sorrowful time. sigh. how remarkable if our mind had cpu-like functions whereby we could just select & delete wicever parts that displease us & then copy & paste them wit wicever parts that amuse us. tragically, the mind & heart dont function that way. so here i am, being mercilessly assaulted by my own bitter memories.

& so i've decided to take up my sister's offer for the sake o my son & for that distant peace of mind. who knows in their presence, i might be able to cast that hurtful memories away & cherish ramadhan like others do... & ahmad dhani's ramadhan will be just as splendid! insyaAllah...

HAPPY FASTING, DEAR FRENS...

may tis ramadhan be better than the last...

songs

song 1
* duhai kekasih pujaan hatiku dapatkah kau memberiku satu arti sedikit rasa yang bisa ku mengerti bukan sumpah atau janji
* buktikanlah bila kau ada cinta setulus hatimu bisa menerima sebatas kejujuran yang kau miliki bukan sekedar bersama
* jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi setia tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama jauhi diriku, lupakanlah aku
* jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi setia tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama jauhi diriku, lupakanlah aku selamanya

song 2
*Ku susuri malam ini Yang tidak berbintang sunyi sepi Juga rembulan dah menghilang Dalam kelam ku sendiri
* Ku mencari hembus bayu Yang selalu berbisik madah rindu Kini membisu dalam sayu Tidak ku temu suaramu
* Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku Di saat ku perlukanmu Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu Di sini ku tersedu-sedu Setelah cinta pergi Ku mengusung duka ini diiringi Kisah janji dimungkiri lagi
* Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku Di saat ku perlukanmu Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu Di sini ku tersedu-sedu Setelah cinta pergi Ku mengusung duka ini Diiringi Kisah janji Dimungkiri Dimungkiri
* Sia-sia ku Mencintaimu Setia padamu Percayakanmu Sebak dadaku Retak hatiku Luka jiwaku Dihiris pilu
* Sia-siaku Mencintaimu Setia padamu Percayakanmu Sebak dadaku Retak hatiku Luka jiwaku Dihiris pilu Beribu sesalanku…

two songs that often get me started wit singing my heart out & ended wit crying my heart out. hah. wat tragic lyrics!

nway, we went to SD yamaha concert on 1 july. a tragically funny story it was. i knew the concert was on 1 july but bcoz i had bn terribly bz that week, it just slipped my mind that 1 july was that sunday aft our career fair in klcc. i had a weddg to attend on that sunday. & dared to make arrangement for a girls get2gether aftwards.

come 1 july, the phone reminder went off. 1 july, 1-5pm, yamaha concert, SD club house. there u go all the plans simply went down the drain. a fren chastised me even for ditching the plan. but wat wud u have me do? not like i had someone else to take dhani to the concert kan.

but nope, dhani wasnt performing but i was hell bent to take him to the concert so at least he wud know wat a yamaha sch concert looks, feels like.

a simple staging

solo violin was soothing but dhani said it made him sleepy

tis duo played classical. it made dhani even sleepier. hehe

tis is shawn, age 13. bn playing drum for only 4m. but he started wit electone so he's learning drum faster since he can already read notes

another drum solo. he's even older, age 15

my lil drummer. his instructor actually wanted to put his name down but he was too shy & wasnt confident enuf. it's ok, practice & learn more, nxt year we'll make sure he's in

& mb by nxt year he could play drum acoustic for jujur by radja & beribu sesalan by 3 suara for me ;) btw, choosing drum seems like a rite thing to do. had we decided on piano or violin, surely by now he'd have lost interest already based on his comments during the concert. hehe.

wake up call ;)

it's monday & i've got like 4000 files fr last week. ok, i exaggerated a bit, but i do have countless files that i've lost track o wic ones to make payments, wic ones to prepare memos, wic ones that just need updating. haish.

& i've only managed to send out 1 memo (aft about 500 times correcting mistakes here & there!), shot out few emails, settled 2 payments. another haish.

tis seems more than monday blues.

went to clinic earlier, met a fren fr another dept who excitedly said to me "u pregnant, kan?". i was dumfounded, couldnt suppress my inappropriate loud chuckle. "ya, that's wat i heard. some1 was looking for u & was told u were on mc. & some1 else said u're pregnant & every1 else were like... aahhh. no wonder she was on mc", said she sincerely.

dunno whether to cry or to... no. i shud be crying. i shud be feeling sori for myself.

i've let myself become tis fat & it makes ppl think i was prgnnt.

or mb i shud just paste a note on my forehead saying that i'm a single mom? mb i shud.

i told a fren 'bt it & she asked me if the ppl here have no idea 'bt my status. & i said, wat status? come on... if u use the word 'status' it feels like u're putting a label on it. & labels mostly do not have +ve connotation. unless it's designer labels. hehe. i prefer the word 'single mom' instead o 'status'. it makes me proud. just like in bahasa. if u say 'janda', it's kinda embarrassing. u use 'ibu tunggal' instead. ok, i'm ranting already.

i twitted 'bt it & a male fren playfully congratulated me. like wth??? & i said he was stupid (& i'm not sori 'bt it & i just wont be).

i know i'm not the only one who's unfortunate enuf to have had experienced tis. but we might have reacted differently dealing wit it.

a fren said 'how could they be so insensitive?'. another fren said 'i dont dare asking ppl if they were preggy, afraid that i might be wrong & it really is a sensitive issue (i rephrased tis but that's the gist)".

me? i curse myself for being in tis physical condition that allows ppl to get the impression that i'm prgnnt & cause them to bluntly come to me for assurance. & just like a cherry on top o BR ice-cream gold medal ribbon flavor, half o the ppl in that dept really thot so. & IF i had the possibility to be prgnnt in the current state, alhamdulillah. the ironic is, there wasnt any.

so ppl thot that i was prgnnt. wat a wake up call that is.

i will wake up 2moro. for 2day, let me enjoy my kfc's flaming krunch. hehehe.

verdict: it's just so so. i love my hot & spicy better ;)

work trip

9 june - KL 1130am, penang 230pm.

12 june - penang 730pm, KL 1100pm

Was assigned to coordinate a conference @ traders hotel, penang. anak skippd sch, patut 2 days tp jd 3 days sbb die stil blum fully recharged. 

4 days @ penang tp x ke mane langsung. the afternoon we arrived sempat panjat 1st avenue mall, just beside the hotel. pegi beli brg2 unt conference, hadiah kuiz, items unt hamper la bagai. by the time blk hotel, it was already 9pm. konon nk pekena rojak buah gurney drive, skali langsung x larat bile nmpak katil! haha. 

The nxt day was the event itself. arrival o big bosses, participants, panelists. welcoming / opening remark followed by watever there was in the itinerary. ended wit bbq dinner. the lil one was left wit along to amuse themselves @ the cinema nearby. they watched madagascar 3, derang kata lawak gile. nsb la mall's just a stone's throw away. 

Nxt day pon same agenda. tp most bosses had to rush back to kl sbb ade PM visit. phewww. lega! Day 2 event went smooth. Mlm we were invited for a dinner @ our newly constructed admin building @ prai printing plant. Took the kids skali. ade kduri durian!!! gile la i had like 10 ulas that nite. nvr knew balik pulau durians r owh so sedap! even the lil one mkn byk. 

Day 3 was a bit kelam kabut. the hotel was running full house so we couldn't get late check out. event overan a bit, bus was already waiting since 430pm & we ended @ 6pm. sebelum blk sempat mkn cendol je @ belakang chow rasta. it was already 645pm then, nk beli jeruk pon x sempat. 

We crossd the bridge @ 8pm. ahmad nani lost consciousness the moment he got in the car, same happend to my oth 2 passengers. I was sleepy, knackered, tired beyond words. kept stepping on the accelerator sbb nk cepat smpai. nsb ade cd ust azhar idrus peneman. alhamdulillah we safely arrived @ 11pm. droppd a fren @ sri pentas & we were home the nxt 10 min.

Smpai rumah, dh x larat ape. tgk ahmad dhani terasa sayu. syukur sgt for this amazing boy. & syukur la ade along byk tlg itu ini. I fell asleep on couch wit that day's attire stil on. 12am I felt a soft lips pressing mine, & I heard a soft voice saying "mummy, I can't sleep. can I sleep wit u?" 

Aft an exhausting work trip, a tight hug fr the lil guy was really a blessing. alhamdulillah.

kosong... NOT.

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Kosong...kosong


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Membuatku rasa
Kosong .. kosong 


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Kau cari cara putar belitkan
Kau jadikan diriku
Kosong...kosong


Segala kata cacian
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Membuatku rasa
Kosong...kosong


tis is our currect fav song. wenever the song is aired both mom & son wud sing along siap berjoget bagai. hehe. unlike her other 2 hits yg i personally think x best langsung, tis song is quite catchy. mb tis is the only song wit lyric yg x overly perasan. yes, if u notice her earlier hits both self-acclaimed 'i'm the pretty one that's why the boy fell for me'. bluekkk! 


nway, coming back to kosong, that's certainly doesnt represent our life tis days. 2moro's thursday then friday. w'ends are now spent at dhani's mama's house. our kemas-rumah-on-w'ends routine is now out the window. the bigger dhani gets, the more his mama wants him to be around as much possible. agaknye kalau boleh she wants us to move back in wit them. ni awal2 dh requested us to spend the month o ramadhan there. 


so for the past how many w'ends, we've bn packing our bags every friday & off we go to mama's. saturday & sunday morning kaum2 ibu have swimming lessons. hehe. alhamdulillah aft about 12 hours o lessons i now can swim. yeay! tho at the age of 34 *blush blush*. it was a challenge at 1st. funny how it seems so simple wen others are doing it but wen u actually try it, baru tau how difficult it is to get your hands to synchronise wit your legs & how hard it is to make your body float at the same time. but alhamdulillah, i've passed frog style walau stil huru hara but hey... ok wat? now we're learning free style wic i think is easier to do but more tiring compared to frog style.

8am on w'end morning. gigih!

the month o april was both mama & mummy's bday month. so we went out quite frequently for w'end lunches & dinners. same thing's bn happening in may in celebration of mothers day ;) 

lunch @ o'briens wit abg iman post the avengers

 BR treat post dinner wit mikel yg gedebob

 mummy yg gedebob ;p

mkn ni mane x gedebob! tartufo @ italiannies

one w'end we followed mama balik kolo pilah to visit nenek & atok. tempat wajib pegi ialah pasar & kedai tudung kwn mama. hehe.

 hi-way ganti bukit putus (eh ye ke? ye la kan?)

 mentang lah it was only kolo pilah, i simply wore a mismatched leopard print leggings wit red tshirt. hehe. & orange tudung! ;p

 had nasi lemak smbal sotong @  an old school kopitiam by the roadside :)

mama bought 4kg tulang for her & 2kg for me wic i later made sup tulang & brought to ofis :)

bought selendang @ mama's fren's boutique. the exact same one costs 75 @ ariani. sold for 35 here. super like!

one w'end we went to curve to get abg iman's drum set. but we spent more time @ daiso & nichii than at yamaha. bengkek je the boys esp the big one lah sbb the lil one was also amused by watever stuff @ daiso :p

 abg & adik

 mat ni pulak yg lebih2 test nmpak. hehe.

 wat i got fr daiso (paid by  mama. she said use 1 bill lah, easier. i took out some notes & she pushed the notes back to me. hehehe)

 the cuties ;)

the occupants. super love!

we normally go out for only 2 hours, 3 max. the big boy doesnt have the patient to leave his online games for too long. balik rumah the moms sambung project. kalau rajin tolong mama kemas her wardrobe lah, kemas tudung lah, kemas hbags lah, kemas mekap lah, kemas accessories lah... 

 brooches maintaining & repairing session (hers)

mine (sad). 70% was either gifted by, taken or borrowed fr but never meant to be returned  (even sadder! :p)

if there's no mengemas project, i'd make us something out o the ordinary. bkn out o ordinary apa sgt lah, just stuff i rarely make. 

 strawberry smoothies

 siap!!!

 choc milkshake (i used milo instead sbb xde choc. pndai2 je kan... heee)

siappp!!!

abg iman used to be most irritated by dhani's room invasion. he wud stay lockd in his room. he hated it wen the lil one pestered him for his desktop, his ipod, his ipad, his iphone, his ps, his drawing block, his color pencils, in short, his everything. but tis lately, die cam almost impatient to wait for dhani's arrival. the reason being is...

they're infected wit euro fever!

he's so into football at the moment so i got him tis :)

my sister rarely cooks. she only does so on special occasions. & also wen she has something to shout about in her cooking. such as... 

limited edition that was flown all the way fr tawau

& my sister always have somewhere to go or something to find or appointments due on w'ends. giant kota dsara lah, giant kelana jaya lah, tesco lah, pkns shah alam lah, wangsa maju lah, jalan TAR lah, masjid india lah etc etc etc. & before tis she never wanted me to drive her around. she preferred mak atik. she only resorted to me if mak atik couldnt make it. tu pon as teman, still not as her driver. but lately she has started to have some confidence in my driving ability. so saya jd driver lah. cuma wit me, she cant simply sit back & relax, she has to be my human gps lest she wants us to get lost 2gethergether.  ok, now i know why she refused to let me drive her that often, i'm sgt bodosss wen it comes to roads & direction! hahaha.

found these books @ one o the bookstores @ pkns. a very commendable effort to promote jawi learning among kids. dhani had so much fun wit riddles fr 'cubalah teka'.

that's our w'end routines. as for tis coming one, we've already got a list o xtvts lined up for us. saturday: swimming cls for mummy, 1st football training for dhani @ skttdi (1). best o luck, darlz! sunday: we're going hiking @ broga hill wit mummy's  uni frens. ntah bleh ke x pompuan gemuk ni panjat bukit??? huwa huwa huwa. & there;s his wudo class yg ntah bile nk smbung, 

kosong? most definitely not! yeay, w'end is approaching fast!